i fell into yesterday

so i finished my brutal essay

and because it pretty much consumed my life for a few days

i did something really beyond stalker

i facebook googled (searched for someone on facebook) my T.A.!

and i found his public profile

creepy to the max i know

but i found it VERY amusing

you know you assume your t.a's have lives outside of the classroom?

well mine does, it just revolves around old philosophers

he had pictures of Hegel in his albums

i find this very very funny

so i showed my friends in my class

they laughed a lot

but i know they secretly think i'm insane

and i can't really blame them

i decided to download a bunch of old AFI songs

i don't know what's with me wanting to all of a sudden be 15 again

i think its like, when you do something thats really really shitty

and then after a long time it seems like you kind of forget the bad parts

(i think forgetting bad things is a natural defense our minds have)

and then all you remember is that maybe it was cool

and sometimes it seems like, super cool

i think that's what is happening here

like, i think i liked being 15 because my brain has actually erased everything almost (because it was almost all bad) and just left me with good things

it took my brain 8 years to do this, so really, it must have been pretty bad

but all i want is to be 15 again

and so all i can do is listen to music i liked when i was 15

all the lyrics make so much more SENSE now

now that im not trying to manipulate them into meaning some crazy shit about not eating and maybe cutting

i wish i could be 15 again knowing what i know now

being a 23 year old in a 15 year olds life

god damn i cant even imagine how i'll feel when im 30

kelli, i know you want to be 15 again too, any theories why we liked that age so much?

what am i going to do this summer.

quote of the day (new addition to blog):

"we cross our bridges when we come to them

and burn them behind us

with nothing to show for our progress

except a memory of the smell of smoke

and a presumption that once our eyes watered."

-tom stoppard

picture of the day:

-piece 4 in 'food i like that is junk food' series: 'Secret Weapon' -

mercy

this is my blog today. it was going to be a video about high school musical that i am working on, but then matt decided to come over to my house, with his computer, and make a video which he titled: "matts BETTER video"
this is what he created:

come on come on listen to the money talk

every morning i wake up to ACDC - Money Talks

the only reason is that it is the first song on my ipod

and my ipod alarm clock automatically defaults to the first song if i dont set it

which i never do

i dont even know why i have it on my ipod

i dont like it

but now that i have to hear it every morning to wake up

i have actually started to like it a little

more than a little actually

i crave it now

and find myself needing to put it on while i am doing things

like driving, or homework

and so i have determined

that all i have to do to like something a lot

to really kinda love it

is repeat it many, many times

in a semi-conscious state

so from now on

i'm going to do shit i hate

more often

take some quaaludes

and hope for the best

In other news, people came in to my work today wearing masks and gloves. MULTIPLE PEOPLE. Please never come near me wearing a mask, i will automatically assume your breath will kill me and probably never be able to stand within 5 feet of you ever again.

the WHO hasn't raised their level from 5 to 6 yet today, so i suppose i should do my essay since we're not all going to die just yet.

i will never feel a bigger sense of relief than when i am finished my last university exam on may 30th. i seriously think it might be the closest i'll ever get to nirvana.

picture of the day:

this is part of a series titled: food i like that is junk food. This one is called "Death trap mints" because i once choked and almost died on a junior mint, backing out of a parking lot.