all of those things that i thought were so easy just got harder and harder each day

so apparently i am fearful and full of anxiety

i think i might have had an inkling that that was the case

but it was totally confirmed for me on friday

AT WORK 

awesome

the only things anyone at work has to say to me now:

"just breathe hun"

"how ya feelin' babe?'

"you're way too young to be having panic attacks sweetie"

i feel like saying i know how to fucking breathe

but then i remember that i don't  

remember that time in first year university where i pissed my pants?

and i told everyone it was because i had a bladder infection

well i didn't

and it was a panic attack 

so yeah

that's my anxiety ridden story

university is done in one week exactly

i am SO GLAD

university (for me at least) was a lot like watching the penguin movie

what was it called

march of the penguins

it's like watching that

where it's a beautiful intelligent movie

but all it ever does is make you fucking sad and feel useless to help

so i watched march of the penguins for five years

i went to the zoo with matt and all the animals showed me their ass all day long when i attempted to take pictures of them

picture of the day:

the only pretty one i could get

quote of the day:

"i became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity"

-edgar allan poe